I'm Low On Gas And You Need A Jacket - Pierce The Veil
No, no more eyes to see the sun.
You slide into bed while I get drunk.
Slow conversations with a gun, mean more than I've ever said to anyone...♥
Sorry I've been really m i a...
I mean theres school, all this stuff going on, it's crazy, I'm driving myself over the edge...honestly I've been wanting to break into tears all this week...
There's also something I've been holding in, and it's important, I feel like I should let you know something about me...I've only told one girl about in on here, only one. She's been lovely enough to keep it to herself, and I wanna thank you, you know who you are...
11 years-ish ago, I woke up, my mom brushed my hair as I brushed my teeth, she would hum softly to me, a quite peaceful morning. I changed into some cloths she had laid out for me, a blue, pink, and black dress, with white tights. As I put them on I looked in the mirror, I didn't like it, I didn't feel like me. I didn't want to look this way. I was uncomfortable? Is that it? Why did she keep calling me those things? I wasn't a girl, what? I was?
At age 8 I cut all my hair off, short, how I liked it. I wore jeans, my most un-girly shirt, and some sneakers. I looked in the mirror. I'm a boy. I repeated it in my head till I was satisfied with the words in my head. I told my mom to stop calling me a girl, no, I yelled. I was a boy. She nodded her head and we talked. When I turned 10, I learned the word transgender. I was in a office, as were my parents, and a doctor and nurse. We all talked about this new word, the more I knew, the better I felt. I was put on hormone stoppers the next week, but as we left that hospital, my parents looked at me, and asked me a simple question. "What would you like to be called from now on Avery?" I answered with "Kyle." I kept my middle name the same. For my 12th birthday I had surgery, I felt half way complete. I also had moved to a new town, so I could start out fresh as Kyle, as a boy, It was perfect. I still couldn't do chest surgery yet, now I'm not completely sure why though...
I've always been Kyle, I was just trapped in the wrong body.
So guys, I'm transgender. yes, I said it.
I am. I've always been a boy, I just was never in the right body.
I came out to my mom as gay when I was 13, but I'm sure she already knew that.
I only share this because, it feels liked I'm hiding it from you, like I'm lying, when I tell someone, this weight is lifted off my chest, it's nice. Most my close friends in the real word know, honestly one 2 of my boyfriends knew about this, I kinda just hid it from everyone. But hiding isn't fun for me...unless it's hide & seek!
I'm sorry if some are you are mad that I didn't tell you this before hand, it's hard for me, it's emotional actually...it's most of the reason why I've ever cut.
Now to let out more truths, I have been doing such lately, it's been really ruff...like wow...
enough of that though...
You know I'm here for you, you're my top priority!♥
I will try and be here at least on the weekend, if you need me during the week, kik me: KyleLikesOwls
Yes my icon is Vic. K?
Tomorrow at like 5-6 I have my chest surgery. I wont be able to talk for that day, I have to stay over night. -.-
Erm, better set next weekend or this weekend, where I share my loves for yew c:
I love you.
ever forget that.
If you never leave, I will never leave.
I'm here till my heart decides to stop racing for you♥